The next two days, I spent with Jeff. I should be embarrassed to admit most of that time was spent getting to know each other’s bodies, but I am not. I had a great time but I knew it was coming to an end. It was like there was this unspoken agreement between Jeff and I that this was a one-time deal. We were getting it out of our system and moving on with life.
My family was due back in town this evening and I know it’s going to be rough for Lance and Sandi. Not to mention school starts in just about a month, which means there is a lot of stuff to do to get ready for my junior year. I was looking forward to school starting I know that’s surprising but I liked the routine of being in school as much as I like my partying.
Sandi looked awful when I saw her. She was so pale and looked like she would never be happy again. Lance came to my room that night.
He crawled into bed with me and said “She doesn’t want me anywhere near her.”
“I am sorry Lance. I am sure it is tough dealing with the loss of your own child.”
“It was my child too! Damn I wish she would let me comfort her. She says I just want to have sex with her and knock her up again.”
“Lance I am so sorry.”
I couldn’t even imagine what Lance and Sandi were going through. It’s strange how the two of them had not planned on the pregnancy but as time had gone on they both had come to accept and love their child. Lance and I talked for a while longer. Then decided it was best to head to bed as the memorial service was to be held tomorrow morning for my little nephew who never had a chance to live. I feel sorry for Lance and Sandi, they are facing a rough time ahead.
I found myself wishing that Jeff was here with me. I needed someone to hold me too. I knew that what I was thinking was just wishful thinking on my part but a girl can always dream right? My phone ringing brought me out of my thoughts. “Hello” I said. It was Jeff on the phone. I was shocked to hear him on the other end of the phone I was even more shocked by him asking to come over. I told him that he could come over. I just hope my family didn’t catch us.
Jeff was at my door in about 15 minutes and I was so happy to see him. I don’t care if I am nothing more than a booty call. I just cannot seem to get enough of him. Jeff and I went at each other like we hadn’t had sex in years instead of just last night. Somehow though I realized this was a goodbye, that there would be no more sneaking in my room at night. I would be okay with it though. I knew when it started it would not last forever.
The next morning I woke up in my bed alone. I smiled as I thought about last night. Then reality hit me as I realized I had to get ready for my baby nephew’s memorial service. I made my way to the shower and began preparing for the day. I wore black from my underwear to my dress. I looked so depressing but I guess that is how one is suppose to look for a death in the family like this.
As I was walking to meet up with my family in the kitchen I ran into Marco in the hallway. He smiled at me strangely. I asked him why he was smiling at me like that. He told me that Jeff had talked to him last night and told him that we ended what was going on between us; and he just wanted to make sure I was okay. I told Marco I was fine that I was content with the way things had ended and that I wasn’t going to turn into some clingy teen girl holding onto the guy she lost her virginity too. I went into the whole thing with eyes wide open and was going to be fine.
The Memorial service went as well as can be expected there were of course lots of tears at it. After we were at the house alone my mom announced that she was taking Sandi on a trip for a couple of weeks so that she could have some time to heal before school started. Things were pretty quiet except that Lance was still giving me some grief about hanging out with the gang so much and always being at the Oasis partying.
One night while at the Oasis I had just gotten into an ugly fight with Lance about wanting to go to a party with him; I was in the back office trying to cool off when Jeff came in. “Lacey, give your brother a break, he is trying to protect you, he doesn’t want to see you turn into one of the calloused females that are always around us” and I spun on him and I said “It must be something that happens to them after you fuck them!” I saw shock register across his face and almost immediately regretted I had said it but it was too late he was gone. Later on when I rejoined the group I saw Jeff kind of sitting to the side and I quietly whispered to him, “Ignore me its not your fault, I am just tired of the whole princess routine, from my brother”
I walked over to the bar and order a couple of shots and downed them. I was so not in a good mood now. Marco came up to me and began talking to me and thanks to him I felt a little better but not really. I was ready to unleash on someone I was wound up so tight. I had all this pent up anger towards my brother and his over protectiveness of me. After several more shots, not sure how many I lost count I was rip roaring drunk and Marco decided I should go home. I didn’t fight him and let him lead me out to his waiting car and take me home. As soon as we got in the house I stumbled to my room and fell face first into my bed and passed out.
Two weeks went by fast and soon Sandi and my mom were home and it was time to go school shopping. The three of us along with Lance went to the uniform shop so we could be outfitted for uniforms for the school year. Stupid private school uniforms. Although really for uniforms they were not bad. We had to wear a white button up shirt with a green plaid skirt. I of course had my skirts altered to be as short as I could legally have them.
School started back and I wasn’t surprised that more drama was about to begin in my life. It started the second week of school when Beth came up to me and told me that Anna had somehow figured out Jeff and I had been hooking up and that since he was completely ignoring her that she was coming after me to make sure I knew to stay away from her man. I was a little surprised as was Beth when I told her that Jeff and I had not been together in almost a month. We had decided that there was too much potential drama with us hooking up. Yes I had told Beth everything about what had happened with Jeff and I over the summer. I needed my best friend to be aware of what had happened. I was glad now that she was filled in because I had to figure out what I was going to do about Anna. I had a sinking feeling my brother was going to find out his sister and his best friend had hooked up over the summer.
Beth and I were walking down the hall when I saw Anna and a couple of her friends waiting for me to reach them. Anna wanted to get up in my face and she was trying really hard to start a fight with me right there. She had me so pissed I finally told her that we would meet in the field at the end of the day and settle this. I slyly reminded her to make sure Lance didn’t find out or she wouldn’t even get a chance to fight me because he would stop it. Anna and her girls swore to keep the fight a secret.
Beth looked at me like I was crazy and I just smiled to reassure her I had it under control. I sent Marco a quick text to let him know what was going on so that he could be there. I knew once the fight was over that Lance, Steve and Jeff would hear about it so Marco would need to be there to assure them that it was all under control. Not that I needed Marco little miss Anna was in for a surprise my MMA training with Marco this summer was fixing to pay off big time.
There was a very small group of girls waiting outside when school ended. Anna true to her word had kept it secret so the boys wouldn’t find out. Marco was there and looking rather smug because Anna was very confident the little princess wouldn’t be able to fight. I was ready to show her just what this princess could do.
Anna charged at me but she made her first mistake and I quickly sidestepped her. This went on and finally she made her second mistake and grabbed hold of my hair and yanked. It was on after that, I used every skill that Marco had taught me and was caught up in the fight I barely realized Anna was no longer fighting me back. I felt someone pulling me off of her but my mind was still in fight mode and I knew I needed to calm down. As I came down from the high of fighting I began to realize it was very quiet around me and then I noticed more people there then when the fight started. The first person I saw was Lance looking at me with a mixture of shock and pride. Steve was smirking and I realized that the person holding me was Jeff.
I quietly ask Jeff to let me go but before he does he whispers in my ear “That was damn sexy watching you fight” Ug that stupid boy he makes my teenage hormones go all crazy, I am suppose to be over him. I am starting to walk away from everyone when Lance calls out for me. I stop and turn around to look at him, “Lacey you have a lot of explaining to do”
“No my dear brother I don’t. Marco taught me to fight over the summer. Anna challenged me to a fight, I won. End of story” and I began walking away with Beth and Marco following. I told Marco that I needed to get home, I wanted to shower and clean up and pray that Lance would leave it alone. Deep down I knew that Lance wouldn’t leave this alone he was going to want to know what had happened that Anna would challenge me to fight. I needed time to think. What was I going to tell Lance and everyone else who I knew was just as curious. I was sitting outside on my deck when Lance caught up to me.
“Lacey what is going on with you?”
“Lance can you just leave it alone.”
“I want the truth from you Lacey. Why were you fighting Anna?”
Jeff chose that moment to come up on the deck, “Yes Lacey, tell us why would Anna want to fight you.” Really he was asking me that. I looked at him like he had lost his mind. How was I supposed to answer him or Lance for that matter. Jeff and I continued looking at each other a few knowing looks passing between us. Suddenly the silence was broken.
“You son of a bitch you slept with my sister!” Lance started to lunge for Jeff, but I jumped in between them.
“Lance”, I screamed, “What the hell are you doing?”
“I am going to kill him what did he do get you drunk and seduce you?”
Jeff exclaimed, “Lance it wasn’t like that!”
“Lance the night I got the call about Sandi losing the baby, I was hanging out with Jeff and he was here and I was sad and he was comforting me.”
Lance yelled at me, “So you let Jeff seduce you into having sex with him?”
“No big brother I had sex because I wanted too! Jeff told me I could stop him any time I wanted but I didn’t want to stop, and I would do it again!” I yelled back.
After the words left my mouth Lance pushed past me and out of my room, I was left standing there with Jeff.
I looked over at Jeff and told him “I’m sorry. I let my temper get the best of me. Lance is pissed, he is going to probably kick your ass.”
Jeff smiled, “Ya probably!” He said it like he didn’t care like it was no big deal. I think Jeff has finally gone off the deep end. I guess Jeff noticed how I was looking because he went on to say “Lacey if I was in Lance’s shoes I would want to kick the ass of the guy who took my sister’s virginity I get it. I understand and if that’s what it takes for him to deal with its worth it”
Just as he finished talking, Sandi and Beth came rushing out of my bedroom. Sandi asked, “What the hell is going on Lance looked like he was ready to kill someone?” Jeff excused himself saying he was going to go and try to talk to Lance. I spent the next hour telling Beth and Sandi everything that happened. When I finished my story I noticed both of them looking at me strangely. I asked “What?” a few moments of silence passed and then Sandi spoke “You are in love with Jeff” I was shocked I didn’t say anything at first then I looked at them both and said “That’s impossible he was just a booty call” I knew as I said that to them I was lying to them and myself I had fallen for Jeff. How could I have been so stupid?
I went running out of my room looking for Marco I finally found him in the game room watching TV. “Marco I need you to take me to Oasis now!” He looked up at me “Dressed like that?” I looked to see I was wearing a sports bra with a tank top over and sweat pants with some flip flops but at that point I really didn’t care how I looked. I told him that yes we were going now there was no time to change clothes. As soon as we parked I rushed past George at the door and ran for the loft I wasn’t in the mood to stop and take in any scenery. I used my key card to let myself in not even paying attention to the guys stopping and looking at me strangely for showing up they way I was dressed. I went straight to the bar and asked for 2 shots of tequila, a saltshaker and a bowl of lemons. Sherry the bartender looked at me like I had lost my mind but began doing as I asked. I did the first shot and told Sherry to keep them coming. Marco finally sat down beside me at the bar and watched in slight amusement as I did shot after shot I lost count after a while. Finally he spoke “Want to tell me what this is all about?” I started giggling and then with a slight slur I told him that Lance found out I had lost my virginity to Jeff and went ballistic. I was still doing shots but at a slower pace by this time and I was drunk but I didn’t care it was going to help me forget. I laid my head down on the bar for a moment and finally looked back up at Marco and said, “I fell in love, how stupid can I get?” Thankfully he didn’t say anything he just sat there took my hand and held it finally he said, “Come on let’s get you home. I promise no matter what happens Lacey you will be okay. ” I let Marco take me home.
As I stumbled into my house later with Marco trying desperately to help me get in safely I was surprised to see Lance, Sandi, Beth and Jeff all sitting in the living room looking like they had been waiting for me to get back. I looked up at Marco and said “Shh! Don’t tell them I got drunk” then immediately burst into giggles. I heard Lance say “Fuck me she is drunk” I heard the girls giggle and I looked to see a smirk on Jeff’s face, but that was not all I noticed. I could see the signs of Jeff and Lance getting into a fistfight it was evident by the bruises both had forming on their faces. “Holy shit did you two run into Mike Tyson tonight” I asked. Lance kept giving me death glares and I finally had enough of his attitude. “Piss on you I am going to bed. Y’all are killing my buzz” I tried to walk to my room but I wasn’t getting very far because I was so drunk that the room started spinning so I plopped back down. I heard them mumbling to each other as I propped myself up against the wall and closed my eyes. I felt someone lift me up into their arms and then I was out.
I woke up the next morning in my bed with the worst hangover. Thankfully someone had prepared for me to have a hangover, as there was a cold bottle of water and two Advil on my nightstand. I swallowed the pills and drank about half the water and lay back in my bed. I didn’t want to get up out of bed I was just going to lay here all day and be miserable. That lasted about 15 minutes before Maria came in carrying a tray of hangover food and told me to eat it all that it would make me feel better. How was I going to feel better the whole reason I drank last night was to forget about Jeff and now he is all I can think about and I feel like shit from doing tequila shots all night.
Around noon I decided to get up and shower and change clothes, I felt good enough at least to do that much. As I felt the hot water run down my body I felt the tension leaving and began relaxing. I washed my hair good and made sure to shave then finally stepped out of the shower. I wrapped myself up in a big fluffy towel and made my way to my vanity where I sat down and worked on brushing out my hair and then pulling it up into a messy bun on top of my head. I decided to dress very comfy today and threw on a pair of black soffees with a black sports bra and pink tank. Cleaning up made me feel better, but I knew that today was a recovery day.
I put on the movie Titanic since it would take up about 3 hours and lay down on the sofa in my room and pulled a blanket down on top of me. I enjoyed the movie and was crying like a baby when Jack died in the end. It was then that Lance decided to come in my room to talk to me. “Lance if you are you going to yell at me, can it wait until tomorrow I have a bitch of a hangover and just can’t deal with it today” I heard him chuckle and he lifted my legs up a little sat down and let my legs rest back on his lap. “No Lace I am here to say I am sorry. I am still not happy about what happened with Jeff but I have to realize it’s your life and I can’t control it” “Really Lance?” “Yes really my sweet sister” I sat up and threw my arms around him and hugged him and said “good because I am going to need my big brother to be here for me.” Without going in to tons of detail I told Lance that I had gone into hooking up with Jeff as a no strings attached and knew what I was getting myself into. Lance didn’t say anything for the longest time and then he grabbed me into a hug and told me that no matter what happens he would be there for me.
I didn’t tell Lance that I was pretty sure I had fallen in love with Jeff. Not something you admit to your brother at all. I knew I was going to have to guard myself when I was around Jeff from now on. I really didn’t want anyone to realize I had fallen for the player. I was not delusional into thinking I could make him change his ways and fall in love with me. The only thing I could do is hope I would eventually love him less and find someone who could love me the way I should be loved.
Monday rolled around once again and yet another week of school started. I had managed to avoid any close encounters with Jeff and when I was around him I was able to act pretty normal. It was Friday right before lunch when my peaceful week was shattered. I was walking down the hallway toward the cafeteria when I ran into Ken headed the same way. His voice that sent chills down my body. “Lacey!” he called out my name as he grabbed my arm. “I want to talk to you please” Granted he was speaking in a gentle voice but there was an edge to it all the same like he wasn’t giving me a choice.
“Ken we have nothing to talk about it” I calmly replied.
Ken pushed me up against the wall and had me trapped where I couldn’t move. “We have lots to talk about little one. I told you once before you belong to me and I am not letting you go. Your little mafia family isn’t going to stop me from getting what I want. And I want you!” He was sending chills down my body and not good chills like scary chills. I decided that he was mentally unstable if he thought he could take on my family. The words coming from Ken’s mouth actually made me want to be sick.
Ken begins to lean in to kiss me and I begin struggling a little with him at that point. I didn’t want his lips touching me anywhere. I was beginning to doubt my own sanity, “What did I ever see in him?” I questioned myself.
I closed my eyes so I wouldn’t see what Ken was doing and waited to feel him touch me but I never did feel it. In fact it was then I realized that Ken was no longer pinning me up against the wall. I also noticed that Jeff was standing there with a clam but deadly look on his face. I sighed loudly. This was not going to be good. Ken started towards me and I felt strong arms pull me back and I was behind Jeff. “Back off Everett, you don’t want to mess with me” Ken obviously didn’t know how to keep his stupid mouth shut “I see what’s going on here I am not the only one who wants to bang the mafia princess” I felt my eyes rolling and caught myself before screaming out that it was not wanted, but had in Jeff’s case.
Everything seemed to happen so quickly because the words left Ken’s mouth, my thoughts flew through my mind and Jeff landed a hard punch on Ken’s face. That one punch knocked Ken out I saw his eyes roll back in his head as he fell flat on his back with a sickening thud. I looked at Jeff and quietly said “Well someone just got themselves a 5 day vacation from school” Jeff started chuckling at my words. I knew he really didn’t care about getting in trouble. It wasn’t long before a teacher sent Jeff and I to the office to talk to the principle. As we waited to see Mr. Greene, Lance burst through the office door. “ Lacey are you okay?” he exclaimed. I smiled at his outburst and nodded my head to let him know I was okay. Then he fist bumped Jeff and was like “one punch! That is epic man!” I couldn’t help but to let my giggle escape at their excitement over the fight. It wasn’t long before Mr. Greene called us into his office and he was not smiling.
After spending an hour in Mr. Greene’s office I was sent back to class. Jeff was not so lucky he had received a 3-day suspension for his part in the fight and we were told that Ken would also serve a 3-day suspension for sexually harassing me. I was ready for this school day to be over and to head home and start my weekend.