Marco and I were packed and ready for our trip to Chicago. My parents and Lance were going to drive us to the airport in a little over an hour. The last couple weeks have been different for me. I found myself changing, I was no longer a carefree person, instead I was turning into the ice princess. When I was around others they saw no emotion from me anymore I saved that for when I was alone in bed at night. Somewhere along the way after Jeff walked out on me I turned my emotions off. No one would ever be able to hurt me again the way he had hurt me.
Marco and I spent the two-hour flight laughing and having a good time. In fact there were several occasions on the flight where the other passengers gave us strange looks. It was the first time in almost a month that I had genuinely laughed. As we debarked the plane in Chicago my Uncle Tony along with one of his guys were waiting in the airport for us. Tony introduced the guy as Rocky to us and said he would be accompany Marco and I the whole week we were in Chicago. Rocky helped gather the luggage and we walked out to the front of the airport where a limo was waiting for us. It had been almost a year since I had been in Chicago so I spent a lot of time looking out the window taking in the sights of the city. My Uncle’s mansion was right on the outskirts of the city in a very wealthy neighborhood. I couldn’t help to wonder what would happen during this week away from home. There was so much trouble I could get into.
A maid greeted us as we entered the mansion and escorted Marco to his room while Rocky helped carry my luggage to my room. Thankfully Marco and I had rooms next to each other, as I didn’t want to have to run all over the mansion to get to him. Marco and I both decided to settle into our rooms and nap until dinnertime. Tony had specifically requested we join him for dinner on our first evening in town so we could somewhat plan out my stay. As I lay in the bed in my room I couldn’t help but find my thoughts traveling back to Jeff. I still loved him and honestly I wasn’t sure if I believed he loved me or not at this point. In one way I do believe he loves me or he wouldn’t have run away. I knew he didn’t like showing weakness and to him I was a weakness. That was one problem in mafia families, the people tended to be cold hearted and detached because you couldn’t ever show weakness. I often think that is why my Uncle Tony is single. I know Tony has had girlfriends and even a mistress, but he never married. He never allowed himself to love a woman. He was content that one day Lance would take over the family business, a nephew was just as good as a son in this case.
Dinner that night was just Tony, Marco, Rocky and myself. We sat around enjoying good food and great wine. Tony asked me “So what do you want to do while you are here Princess?” I smiled devilishly at him “Party and get in as much trouble as I can. My uncle let out a hearty chuckle. “When do you want to start?” “Tonight of course!” was my reply. Tony instructed Rocky to take Marco and I to one of his clubs tonight. I was excited about the prospect of the Chicago clubs because they would be totally different from Oasis.
After dinner I went to my room to begin preparing for a night clubbing. I decided on a sexy burgundy slip dress to wear that night to the club. I was feeling a little reckless and decided not to wear anything under it. I slipped my diamond earrings in my ears and did my finishing touches of my make-up then put on my favorite perfume. I was ready to go. Around eight I headed downstairs to meet up with Marco and Rocky. I began walking down the staircase and as I did the guys seemed to notice my arrival. Uncle Tony was looking at me with a huge grin on his face and Marco and Rocky both had their jaws slightly ajar while looking at me stunned. I smiled down at the three guys and couldn’t help but be pleased with the reactions I was getting from them. It boosted my confidence for the club tonight.
As we jumped in a BMW waiting out front for us Rocky told us we had one stop to make on the way to the club. He had talked to his sister Rose and she had agreed to go with us tonight so I would have a female companion. I just hope I would like her. Marco and I waited in the car as Rocky pulled up and went inside an apartment building and soon he was coming back accompanied by a beautiful girl who looked to be around nineteen. As she got in the backseat with me she gave me a big friendly grin and Rocky introduced everyone. I immediately felt like Rose was someone I had known all my life and knew tonight was going to be lots of fun. I also couldn’t help but notice my Marco kept checking Rose out maybe I wouldn’t be the only one having fun this week.
Twenty minutes later we parked outside a very happening looking club. The line to get in wrapped around the building twice. The four of us walked straight up to the door and as Rocky talked to the bouncer and introduced Marco and I, I caught a girl in front of the line saying “how come those whores get to go in before us” I guess the only thing I can say is my new ice princess personality is to blame for what happened. I turned and looked and saw who said it by the sneer on her face and walked closer to her and didn’t say a word as I stared at her with cold eyes and reached out and punched her dead in the face. I am pretty sure I broke her nose from the crack I hears and stated loudly “I am not a whore” and proceeded to walk into the club with my head held high.
Rose was laughing as we walked together toward the bar and said she loved me already and decided she was my Chicago BFF. I smiled at her and told her that was wonderful. Rocky was ordering us drinks from the bar and I was looking around at the scene and realized that this place was awesome. I almost wish Beth and Steve were here with me since they were my clubbing buddies. However as Rocky handed us each a drink and began leading us to a roped off VIP area on the floor I thought my new friends might just be good clubbing buddies too. A table was immediately cleared for us in the VIP section when it was passed around that I was Lacey Santiago. I liked this feeling of power. Rose and I had finished our drinks and headed out to the dance floor. We were laughing and having a good time dancing with each other and after several songs decided to head to the bar and get a couple more drinks and rest our feet for a few minutes. It was as I was standing at the bar I saw him, I thought I was seeing things at first but after blinking a couple of times I realized I was not seeing things he was really here standing just a few feet down the bar from where I was. Looking as sexy as ever, in his low-slung jeans and a button up shirt with the top button undone. Jeff was in fucking Chicago! The other thing I noticed was there was a blonde tramp trying to hang all over him. He wasn’t actually pushing her away but he wasn’t holding her close either. It almost like he couldn’t care one way or the other what she was doing to him. I wish I could see his eyes to see what I could see in them. Rose interrupted me “Um why are you staring so hard at the hottie?” “That is my ex boyfriend who ran out on me when I got shot a month ago. Let’s head back to Marco and Rocky.”
Marco took one look at my face as I walked back to the table and said, “What happened?” I couldn’t answer right away because I had so many emotions running though me. Finally it a cold tone I said, “I found Jeff” Marco looked at me stunned with his mouth hanging open, “What do you mean you found him?” “Marco I mean he is hear in Chicago in this fucking club right now” I saw Marco begin searching the room and I could tell when he found Jeff as anger began taking over Marco’s eyes.
Rose and I were drunk an hour later and we kept teasing Marco “Marco which one of us is prettier?” “That ladies is a trick question that I refuse to answer. We finally got Marco out on the dance floor where Rose and I sandwiched him in between as we dirty danced all around him and on him. We were having a great time until I felt someone grab me and there was Jeff. I looked at him and said coldly, “Can I help you?” “Lacey, what are you trying out for tramp of the year? You have barely anything covering your ass. In fact I bet you are not even wearing panties.” “Jeff that is really none of your fucking business what I am or am not wearing you gave up that right up when you walked out and if you do not mind you are ruining my fun!” I turned back around to join Marco and Rose.
After another hour there I had to go to the bathroom so I excused myself and went down to the restroom when I came out I saw Jeff and he grabbed my arm and somehow I made it into a back to the office. “So are you trying to hook up with Marco now?” “What if I am it is none of your business.” “Lacey you know you it won’t work this time?” “What won’t work?” “Making me jealous.” “Jeff I could care less about making you jealous, I am trying to have fun and forget you were even a part of my life.” Then he had me in his arms kissing me, and lord I could not help myself but I responded to his kisses. We were kissing like we could not get enough of the taste of each other. I could feel the heat rising in my body and I could feel his hardness pressed against me. His hand slipped under my dress and his fingers found me wet and waiting for him. He undid his pants and before I could blink he was in me and I wrapped my legs around him, pulling him into me further. It didn’t take long of this furious mating until we were both coming and God did that release feel good. When we were done I smiled at him, “I better get back to my table before they send a search party out looking for me.” I straightened my dress and looked in the mirror ran my fingers through my hair and walked out the door.
When I got back to the table Marco was looking at me, “What happened to you?” I didn’t even care that Rose and Rocky were sitting there. “I think I just got what they call royally fucked!” “Excuse Me!” Marco exclaimed, “By who? Oh never mind I know who!” “Marco do not start with me you know how it is.” A couple hours later we decided to call it a night.
I invited Rose to stay at the mansion with me and she eagerly accepted. As we rode back to my uncle’s house we made the plans for the rest of my week in Chicago. I don’t know if it was good or bad but I didn’t see Jeff again after that first night. On my last night there I told Rose I would come back during the summer and that I would bring my brother and friend’s with me and we would really party it up.
Marco and I arrived back home and I called the inner circle together and told them about running into Jeff in Chicago. All though I left out the part about hooking up with him in the back of the club for once I kept my private life just that and Marco had already agreed to keep my secret for me. Lance was furious that I ran into Jeff and that he didn’t do anything but harass me at the club that night. I told him it was fine that I was a big girl and took care of myself. The one thing it did allow me was some closure on my relationship with Jeff. I still love the idiot but I figure I probably always will.
It’s almost the end of the school year again and I sit on my deck contemplating all that has happened in the last year. I went from a semi normal teenager to a mafia ice princess. I can’t blame it all on a failed love relationship. Each choice I have made in the last year has made me who I am. It started with Ken being abusive, falling in love with Jeff, actively seeking revenge on Ken, getting shot, and losing Jeff. Each of these events is a defining moment in my life. I knew that I was a different person as my 17th birthday approached. I was no longer innocent and naïve in life.
As usual for a Friday night I was planning for a night out at Oasis. One thing I learned in Chicago I could do random hook ups, not sex but everything else was fair game. I guess in some ways I was not ready to share my body fully again. All this went through my mind as I showered and dried off. I went to my closet and began searching for that perfect outfit to wear tonight. I finally settled on some booty shorts and a sparkly bandeau top. I grabbed some gold stilettos to match my top and dressed quickly. I sat down at my vanity and began doing my make up and moved onto my hair. Soon as I was ready to go get me a man. Marco was waiting for me in the game room and I breezed into the room I saw him look me over and shake his head. “Your outfits get riskier and riskier Lacey. Do you like making my job hard?” “Marco you know I don’t do it for that reason. I just like being able to pick up guys in the club” He walked up to me and began guiding me with a hand on my back toward the front door. I was meeting Beth and Amy at the club and of course the guys always show up at some point.
Lance and I have been labeled the twin players of the school. Since both of us came out of committed relationships we have done nothing but random hook ups. It’s surprising how many want to be able to say they hooked up with us. Of course there is an occasional one or two who think they will be the one to settle us back down. Little does anyone know for me the only way I would settle down ever again is with Jeff. He is the only one I could ever love.
Marco and I make into the club and its already packed with a waiting line around the building. We head straight for the VIP loft and I find Beth and Amy sitting at the bar waiting for me. I walk up to them and greet them “Hey my bitches ready to party!” They both tell me they are ready and I ask sherry for a dbl shot of tequila and slam it down and then grab a Corona and head back down to the dance floor. I make my way to the dance floor and begin swaying to the music as I sip on my beer. Steve has soon joined me on the dance floor and I sling an arm around his neck as I loosely grind against him. Steve is one of the best dance partners I could ever have. I wish sometimes I could get over the whole knowing him my whole life thing because he is hot and hooking up with him would probably be lots of fun. However instead it’s just lots of flirting then splitting off and finding some random to hook up with.
I am once again dancing with some random guy and we are getting pretty close on the dance floor. I am even letting him kiss along my neck as we grind into each other. Things are going great until I am suddenly jerked off of him and a look of panic crosses his face. I turn around to see a girl who is beyond pissed off. Marco has already started making his way over to where I am. The girl starts yelling at the guy for cheating and then seals her fate with the words you just don’t say to me “You Whore” I don’t know why a person can all call me anything but when they call me a whore its like I snap. Tonight was no exception, once that girl called me a whore my fist hit her face and blood began gushing out of her nose. “Don’t ever call me a whore now get the hell out of my club and don’t ever come back” I walked off and headed to the loft. I walk into Steve, Lance, and Brian standing at the glass but turned toward the door waiting for me. All three of them are smiling and laughing. Lance reaches me first “She called you a whore?” “Yes the stupid bitch do I look like a whore?” “A bitch yes a whore no” Got to love my brother. Brian slings an arm around my shoulder and says “Come on lets get you a shot and a new beer and then I will dance with you I don’t have any jealous girlfriends.” I take Brain up on his offer because a random is looking out of the question tonight so I guess I am stuck with my friends.
I am surprised by Brian’s moves on the dance floor, I never noticed he was so good. “I see Steve is now not my only choice for a dance partner” “I got moves baby!” Brian is making me laugh and I am having a good time with him. I am not sure how long we have been dancing I do know we are both tipsy and been on the floor for a while and we have pressed our bodies closer and closer together with each dance. I look up and realize our faces are mere inches apart and our eyes connect and we stare at each other and then slowly we begin moving towards each other until our lips connect. It starts out slow and easy but soon we are getting a little heated and I suggest to Brian we take it somewhere more private. He eagerly agrees with me and tells Marco he is taking me back to my house. We drive to my house in silence but both of us keep glancing at each other and smiling. The anticipation of what’s to come is making us both quiet.
We go around toward my deck to go into my room but as soon as we make it on the deck Brian has me pressed against the side of my house kissing me like crazy. His kisses are not like Jeff’s that reach my core but they are still pretty mind blowing. His hands begin exploring my body and its not long before my hands are exploring his body too. I soon grip his shirt and pull it over his head and huskily whisper to him “Let’s strip and get in the Hot tub. He lifts me up and carries me closer to the hot tub kissing me non-stop the whole way. He sets me down and I begin undressing as does he and soon we are both naked in my hot tub. We spend I don’t know how long making out in the hot tub and I can tell how happy I am making him. I finally have to stop him and tell him “Brian I wont have sex with you but trust me you will still leave here happy.”
The next morning I wake up and find Brian in his boxers laying in my bed next me. I am in pajamas and am thankful that we somehow managed not to have sex because it got hot last night between us two. We did manage to find ways to both have orgasms not once but several times without the intercourse so we obviously were doing something to make each other feel good. I notice Brian is beginning to wake up and he gives me a slow lazy grin “I think that is the best night I have had without having sex with a girl” I can’t help but to chuckle at what he says “Ya it was pretty fun, I haven’t had that much fun in awhile” Its left unspoken but Brian knows I am saying since Jeff. He gives me another smile and then hops up and says well I need to head home or my parents will start freaking on me. I have to be the dutiful son every few days. I laugh and give him a hug and tell him I will see him later and he leaves out my back door while I get ready to take a shower.
I did have a great time with Brian in fact he was probably the one guy I had felt most alive with since Jeff left. It wasn’t anything more then lust and I knew that but that didn’t mean it didn’t fell good. I was really beginning to wonder if I would ever be able to be with a guy without comparing him to Jeff. That was a huge issue every guy I hooked up with got compared to Jeff and how Jeff could make me feel and no one ever measure up.
After dressing I made my way to the kitchen to grab some food, as I was hungry. I found my mom and Lance in the kitchen talking. As I listened I realized my mom was asking Lance what he wanted for his birthday this year as my mom noticed I was there she said “Oh good we can start talking party” I looked at Lance and he rolled his eyes showing he didn’t really care what we did. My suggestion came easily “Mom how about we do family and close friends dinner and then clubbing for our birthday this year. That’s what Lance and I would enjoy” I saw Lance smile at me and he quickly told our mom “Yes that would be perfect mom.” I watched as she sat there and thought about it and finally she said “sounds good if that’s what you both want then how can I say no” Lance and I high five each other on getting our mom to agree to what we wanted. I knew it was killing her that her babies were growing up and she couldn’t get away with babying us anymore. Mom soon got up saying she had to get dressed that her and my dad had lunch plans with friends. Lance and I decided to head into the game room.
It was strange that it was just Lance and I at the house. We were so use to our friends being around and we looked at each other and said “Movie” at the same time. I let Lance pick out the movie we watched while I popped us some popcorn and grabbed us a couple of sodas. Soon we were sitting on the couch together waiting for the movie to start “So Lacey you and Brian seemed hot and heavy last night” “Lance don’t go there it was just a hook up, nothing but good fun” Lance smiled at me and said “I just want my sister happy whatever it takes” “Lance I am happy right now, I really am.” He smiled at me and then the movie began. Lance and I enjoyed the movie together and then decided to play each other in a game of pool. We kept this up all afternoon into the evening just the two of us hanging out in the game room. Right around dinnertime I was not surprised when Steve showed up. I think that boy planned to show up for dinner at our house. He said our cook was better then his. The three of us sat down to dinner with my parents and talked about what we were going to do that night. I was surprised when Steve suggested we go to an actual high school party. He said we had done it in a while and it would be different. Lance was up for anything and I thought about it for a bit and decided that Steve was right it had been awhile since we had graced an of our peers with out presence at their parties. We all went our separate ways and began dressing and soon headed out to the party Steve wanted to attend.
I was surprised when the three of us wound up having such a good time at the party that night. We were so use to clubbing or hanging out with the twenty somethings in the gang I thought it might be boring but it really wasn’t. It was nice being “normal” for a change.